We all have them...we're no different than any "normal" person, but today seems more glum than usual.
I get online and see things about men and women in their 20's dying from CF. I ignore it to the best of my abilities, but it's constantly there... lingering, haunting.
Every cough, chest ache, or body ache I wonder if this is the infection that will consume my body. I wonder if this is MAC flaring up after a few years of being dormant.
I look at my calendar and wonder if I'll be using my vacation time for a real vacation or a hospitalization, like previous years. I swallow my fear and continue through the day.
I'm not sure if it's the weather today or lack of sleep, but I'm feeling defeated.
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